Kleenex Anyone....???

Happy Friday Everyone!!! I'm up, not quite at 'em, but I'm up and thanking God anyhow. I have had a rough couple of days, but I have managed to still smile and keep it moving; even though I want to just break down and cry. I received my labs back and they hadn't gotten worse, nor improved, but I am now anemic; which means I must start EPO injections. Man, this sucks, are my thoughts, but it explains my extreme fatigue. All through the day, its' on my mind, "God, how much more can I take?", but I'm at work, so I can't allow myself to truly break down. On my drive to run errands, every song that comes on seems to speak to my situation and I just felt the tears roll, but again I'm not in a place to really break down - I'm driving. I get home and I am really feeling bad, so I decide to cut my night short, but not before watching the X-Factor. Last night were the eliminations and I watched the phenomenal Rachel Crow stand strong and brave and tell the judges that she would be "ok" with whatever decision they made regarding her fate as she stood in the bottom two. Well, all of that courage and strength went left field when her name wasn't called. She did everything but waddle in the floor and kick (LOL), I mean she balled as if this was her last shot to ever become famous. As she cried and pleaded, she turned to her mother and father in her state of vulnerability and asked, "do you promise that this is not the end?" I immediately had a revelation. God, I need to cry and I need to know that your PROMISES to me are still going to come to pass. I let go of everything that I had within me and I just cried and cried and cried and I felt that God was saying to me what Rachel's parents said to her, "yes, I promise." I truly needed to release that and sometimes we all need a moment of release. We don't always have to wear a smile, because sometimes our situation doesn't warrant a smile - even Jesus wept; however, you have to learn how not to stay stuck there. Marvin Sapp's song, "Find your place of Worship" says "that every tear you cry is water for the garden of your victory. And even though, you're in the valley, victory comes through your adversity." God is bottling every tear my friend, so let it out and allow God to water your garden, because your victory is about to harvest. Get READY!!!